Troubled thoughts = troubled dreams

I dream a horriying dream today.. I couldn't sleep till like 5 am cuz I simply kept waking up and checking my living room area to see if anyone was tampering with my window. I woke up at the slightest sound and would automatically think that someone was trying to pry open my window outside. *sigh* I'm in need of dire help..

I dreamt I wake up to find robbers in the middle of trying to open my window .. I took out my camera and took their pictures and called the cops to come quickly. Knowing I took their pictures, they went after me.. but after a while the cops came and i was saved...

Then in another dream, I dreamt I went to work and reached home to find out that my older brother died... Man....... I really feel troubled. I must move as soon as I can...

Am I Stressed?

Lately all my dreams are very weird... unlike the dreams i usually have. I wonder why..

Few days ago, I dream I was with a large group of friends gathering. At one point of the gathering, I tried to take a group photo with all of them but I found that I can't put all of them in a single shot. When I tried to focus on one group of friends, another group of friends were out of the picture, so I shifted my focus to the other group of friends but still can't get all of my friends into the picture. I woke up wondering what the dream meant.. Walking home from work that night, the dream I had crept into my mind again.. Could I have sub-conciously neglegted some group of friends when I was with another? Then again I thought about what I could have done to solve the problem in the dream. I thought... why couldn't I have zoomed out the camera so that the lens view can accomodate more area? or... why didn't i move backwards so that I can take all of their picture? That led me to thinking that perhaps I am too rigid in one aspect that I couldn't think of a solution.

This morning, I dreamt that I smoked *gAsP* yeah, I smoked expecting my body to respond by coughing and yet... I reacted the opposite. I smoked as if I had done it many times before and I was in fact savouring the feeling of freedom it gave me. It made me feel free from stress and I felt so alive.

I woke up thinking about it again.. gee.. I really don't wanna take up smoking juz to free myself from stress. I need a holiday............. zzz.........

My house was broken into

Damn those S.O.Bs broke into my home when I was doing my night shift. Stole my hard earned money and u tink u can get away with it??!!

I cUrse u all! Curse SOBs get bird flu's deadly H5N1 virus or a newer deadlier evolved strain would be better. I wish u SOBs die and fucking rot in hell! I wish u SOBs get all the antibodies in the world could ever have so there's no blood available for u SOBs EVER!! I hope u SOBs get into a major traffic accident, get Emergency Uncrossmatched blood then get SEVERE haemolytic transfusion reaction and BLEED TO DEATH u M.Fuckers!!

Gee.. I can be quite 毒 huh.. I'm so fucking depressed! aRghhhhhhhh!!!

Boring Sunday

hmmzzzz when nothing to do, juz blog haha...

shitz... writer's block again *sigh..... stumped* my brainz pretty rusty thinking what to write. So so, let's start with my work life. So far so good, I pass the 1st year mark without feeling any regret, plus! I'm going to have a $150 increment cuz I got my Bachelor's Degree in Molecular Biotechnology! haha..... Hmmm ironic huh? That piece of paper is only woth $150 Duh.... Choon n Mindy seyz that I should be grateful already cuz they didn't any when they completed their degree.

Oh went to Marina Square yesterday after my *counting* 30 hours feat of staying awake, I still manage to muster some energy to freshen up and go for our poly gathering. It's getting quite rare to have those gathering these days and the attendance is poor too, alwayz the same ppl attending and alwayz the same ppl MIA. So in the end, there's only Mindy, Choon Hong, Alvin and his gf and mi.

We ate at this Imperial kitchen and ate some la mian n stuff. After that we took a walk around Marina Square. MS has changed a lot! It's so crowded with ppl now compared to those days where u can count the number of ppl u see in the walk way. The renovation really did a pretty good hyping up of the place. Choon urged me to see this Creativ speakers he saw earlier on when i told everone i nid a new speakerz. There's this $159 speakers set which iz pretty neat quality I should say. Got pretty blown off by the sound it gave off. But haizz....... too bad no white colour one liao leh............. =( So I left my name n contact number there and let them contact me when there's stock.

Went to look for my running shoes too but shuckz none to my liking. Nike's designs are getting bad to worst!! And their price are still going up! YuCkz! Should I get another Reebok then? Went to look for my brother's pressie too but nothing interest mi as well. Min left earlier to meet her bf *sshhhh* hehe then Alvin and his gf oso left cuz it was getting pretty late. Soon after Choon also sent mi home and that's it for yesterday.

Today planned to go to the IT show's last day after dear finished off his project discussion, but last min he said the project got a major problem and now 11.30 liao still no news from him. I guess he's still doing the project =(

I very siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn Sunday whole day burn at home! how cannnnnnnnnnnnn